I have had an overall unpleasant day. I spoke to my case manager, note: not the same as my life skills manager, and he was painfully unhelpful. In fact, he was not just unhelpful but deeply upsetting. I told him about my dissociative experiences, and about my therapist's opinion on my symptoms. And he simply ignored what I said and asked why I don't have a job. I tried so hard to explain myself and it didn't work.

I had a meltdown as soon as I got home, and I've been trying to recover. The pain hasn't totally been intolerable though because I've dealt with this pleny of times before. I simply am ignored by "experts". Not even told I'm faking it, just not adressed at ALL.

Anyhow, bad day. I've been thinking about myself and how I see myself lately. Especially since starting this website. I may make a page on that soon. Since I have introduced some parts of this system, including myself, but I haven't truly talked about the experience of it all.

-John Doe